I looked back and saw how stressed and suicidal I was 2 weeks ago, where I had so many things to clear on my plate. I should be looking back 2 weeks from now and feel relieved that I have time for my family, frens, Rara etc. But...
Nnnnnnnnoooooooooo.....
How come I feel that my rice bowl's in jeopardy?
Somehow there is this strong feeling that when my projects are done, my boss will just wave goodbye with a mere "Thank you for your participation."
I swear these are not my wild thoughts. I admit I'm very sensitive most times, but this time, it's different. It's so obvious. New products were loaded to my colleagues. Nothing for me. We (me and him) had a discussion about this sometime in Sep, and he simply brushed it off with "Well, plans for you will be aligned to plans for the team as a whole..." And the only thing I gather at that time, it meant no specific/ special plan for me at all.
Now, not to mention he had no SPECIFIC/ SPECIAL plan for me, there isn't even ANY! Oh no. Not good at all. My future's bleak.
It's a wake-up call to flip those papers and update my online resumes again. I better start losing some weight for that "professional" passport size photo.
Friday, January 13, 2006
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
A great piece of news to share with you all.
Woohoohoohoo... nah, not getting married lah.
I am relieved of daily reports! Yay! Actually, wouldn't consider this news. Some of you know already. Ha.
Anyways, just an update for those who haven't been meeting up with me and is deprived because I blog like once in a blue moon.
Great way to start the new year sia. Two cheers for my boss! One cheer minus-ed off because of the stress and frustration she put me through on and off.
MUAHAHAHAHA.. I am getting my life back! No more dormant Zozo... Everybody, put me back to your "active friend" list!!! Wow. Like chong2 chu1 jiang1 hu2 like dat.
My mummy's happy, my Rara's happy, my single frens are happy and I AM HAPPY. Alright, I think I made my point.
Monday, January 09, 2006
My ex- shitty hole colleagues would kill me when they read this entry. BECAUSE... I am supposed to be having dinner with them right now. Sorray ah. No choice. I am wasting my youth waiting for someone to send me her report. Sigh. It's gonna be a matter of time when I cannot say "wasting my youth" because, I will no longer be youthful very soon. Shucks. The mere mention of this gives me the shrudders. Damn. Quarter life crisis.
I wonder what would happen if I efficiently make use of this time to look for greener pasture... Oops. Better not put my rice bowl on the fence. Too much at stake here.
ARGHHHHH...
Someone wake my colleague up from her idea and get her to send me the report!
I wonder what would happen if I efficiently make use of this time to look for greener pasture... Oops. Better not put my rice bowl on the fence. Too much at stake here.
ARGHHHHH...
Someone wake my colleague up from her idea and get her to send me the report!
Sunday, January 01, 2006
I know I haven't had time to blog these days. Wanted to share a couple of experiences with pics but I just cannot download the pics from the new phone I'm using! Damn. This is so frustrating.
Oh, by the way, yups, I've got a new phone. With a great camera! Got flash somemore leh! It's free, courtesy of an ex-colleague and it's not launched in Singapore yet! Wow. It's nice to feel that I am ahead of trend. Haha.
But, I simply cannot figure out how to get my stuff outta the phone! USB failed, I don't know how to use infra red or bluetooth, and I am too cheapskate to send it by sms/ mms.
Argh! I need to grab hold of an engineer here. I hope J didn't see my previous entry on the sparkling juice... J! I need your help!
Before I get the pics, just bear with me lah. Hor?
Oh, by the way, yups, I've got a new phone. With a great camera! Got flash somemore leh! It's free, courtesy of an ex-colleague and it's not launched in Singapore yet! Wow. It's nice to feel that I am ahead of trend. Haha.
But, I simply cannot figure out how to get my stuff outta the phone! USB failed, I don't know how to use infra red or bluetooth, and I am too cheapskate to send it by sms/ mms.
Argh! I need to grab hold of an engineer here. I hope J didn't see my previous entry on the sparkling juice... J! I need your help!
Before I get the pics, just bear with me lah. Hor?
This is something I gotta share. Christmas Pressies Awards 2005...
1. Best Hit of the Year (means the pressie I so wanted and got it)
*drum rolls*
PHILIPS HAIR STRAIGHTENER
Courtesy of: Best Fren
Thank you thank you!!! Muacks! I am so HAPPY!!! No more frizzy hair Zo. It's gonna be Beauty Queen Zo all the way! Woohoo~
2. Sweeter than Candy Floss Award (self-explanatory)
*drum rolls*
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...
Okie, no winner this year. Never liked candy floss anyway.
3. Most Predictable Pressie
There isn't gonna be any drum roll coz everyone would have guessed it anyway...
BODYSHOP GIFT SET
Courtesy of: *XXX (*name has been changed to protect myself)
Body shop must be making BIG bucks man. I get at least one bath set every year. And I am getting kinda pissed with the "Ohhhhh... I soooo love it. It is so nice and thoughtful" line and look I have to act each time I get it. The next time I get it, you can be sure I'll yawn and fall asleep on the spot.
4. Most Loved and Hated
*Drum rolls*
1 BOTTLE OF SPARKLING GRAPE JUICE (wrapped like RED WINE)
Courtesy of: J and F
It was love at first sight. I was so excited to share it with a group of friends whom I arranged to meet on that day. Luckily, I didn't! Because it was all but a scam. Wrapped like red wine, it turned out to be a f***ing bottle of sparkling juice! Damn. Who gives sparkling juices as Christmas pressies??? Damn. And I was so sure it was RED WINE. Tamade. Luckily I did not say loud loud and announce to the entire restaurant sia. (Which I usually would.) And I carried it all the way from YCK to Bugis somemore! SPARKLING JUICE!!! I hate sparkling juices!
Hey, in case you are thinking that I belong to the group of materialistic people who despises sparkling juices and worships red wine because of the monetary value, I AM NOT! I just hate the feeling of being brought to the arms of Takeshi Kaneshiro and at the very next moment, he tells me he's gay. (This is just an example.. there's no way my Takeshi's gay.)
That's all folks. Thank you for tuning in. Well, for those norminees who did not make it this year, Jia You and continue to work hard! Thank you!
1. Best Hit of the Year (means the pressie I so wanted and got it)
*drum rolls*
PHILIPS HAIR STRAIGHTENER
Courtesy of: Best Fren
Thank you thank you!!! Muacks! I am so HAPPY!!! No more frizzy hair Zo. It's gonna be Beauty Queen Zo all the way! Woohoo~
2. Sweeter than Candy Floss Award (self-explanatory)
*drum rolls*
...
...
...
Okie, no winner this year. Never liked candy floss anyway.
3. Most Predictable Pressie
There isn't gonna be any drum roll coz everyone would have guessed it anyway...
BODYSHOP GIFT SET
Courtesy of: *XXX (*name has been changed to protect myself)
Body shop must be making BIG bucks man. I get at least one bath set every year. And I am getting kinda pissed with the "Ohhhhh... I soooo love it. It is so nice and thoughtful" line and look I have to act each time I get it. The next time I get it, you can be sure I'll yawn and fall asleep on the spot.
4. Most Loved and Hated
*Drum rolls*
1 BOTTLE OF SPARKLING GRAPE JUICE (wrapped like RED WINE)
Courtesy of: J and F
It was love at first sight. I was so excited to share it with a group of friends whom I arranged to meet on that day. Luckily, I didn't! Because it was all but a scam. Wrapped like red wine, it turned out to be a f***ing bottle of sparkling juice! Damn. Who gives sparkling juices as Christmas pressies??? Damn. And I was so sure it was RED WINE. Tamade. Luckily I did not say loud loud and announce to the entire restaurant sia. (Which I usually would.) And I carried it all the way from YCK to Bugis somemore! SPARKLING JUICE!!! I hate sparkling juices!
Hey, in case you are thinking that I belong to the group of materialistic people who despises sparkling juices and worships red wine because of the monetary value, I AM NOT! I just hate the feeling of being brought to the arms of Takeshi Kaneshiro and at the very next moment, he tells me he's gay. (This is just an example.. there's no way my Takeshi's gay.)
That's all folks. Thank you for tuning in. Well, for those norminees who did not make it this year, Jia You and continue to work hard! Thank you!
Bye 2005, Hi 2006.
I just realised that as the years goes by (and as I get older lah!), Christmas, New Years, Birthdays blah blah blah just gets boring and boring-er. It has become such a routine that it's losing it's real significance. Dinners, presents and resolutions... Every year I make the same wishes, every year they don't come true and at the end of it all, I simply self-consoled by "Maybe it'll come true the next year!" and then make the same wish. Chey!
Looking back, my wish list definitely remained the same for at least the past 10 years. Wow. NOW time really flies. Shit.
I've probably been a really bad and mean person for the past 10 years. Hahaha. That would explain how the wishes never came true. Alright, for 2006, I'm gonna contribute to the population of the "nice and good", "cheerful and positive" beings. I am SO excited. Bleh.
I just realised that as the years goes by (and as I get older lah!), Christmas, New Years, Birthdays blah blah blah just gets boring and boring-er. It has become such a routine that it's losing it's real significance. Dinners, presents and resolutions... Every year I make the same wishes, every year they don't come true and at the end of it all, I simply self-consoled by "Maybe it'll come true the next year!" and then make the same wish. Chey!
Looking back, my wish list definitely remained the same for at least the past 10 years. Wow. NOW time really flies. Shit.
I've probably been a really bad and mean person for the past 10 years. Hahaha. That would explain how the wishes never came true. Alright, for 2006, I'm gonna contribute to the population of the "nice and good", "cheerful and positive" beings. I am SO excited. Bleh.